New.

I'm not deleting this blog, but I have started a new one.

http://morganiswaiting.blogspot.com/

Please check my new one out. Hopefully it will be better!

Pruture.

Pruture. What I think is a funny word I just made up containing the past, present and future.

Found this quote, embarassed to say that I found it on a horoscope, but thats besides the point.

"If you aren't careful to keep your eyes straight ahead and focused on the future, the past is likely to catch up to you."

Need to start posting more, exams finish next week!

Baby you can drive my car!

Just a quick note to say, that after a VERY stressful week, and one fail...

I NOW HAVE MY LICENSE!!!

It's so awesome. I know it's a cliche, but I feel so free.

List.

I feel like I am stuck in a rut. All I do is go on facebook and get drunk with friends. Now that is all well and good, I have lots of fun. But I sort of had an epiphany yesterday. All of that just isn't enough for me anymore. This year I have been getting drunk at least once a week every single week. This weekend however, I didn't get drunk. I had a movie night with my friends and went to a concert. And I actually feel really good. I feel motivated, and maybe I needed a little push of doing the wrong thing to figure out what the right thing is. Anyway, who knows how long this motivated mood will last but I may aswell go with it while it's there. I have been thinking of some goals I would like to achieve by the end of the year:

• Change my room
• Go on facebook less
• Cut back on smoking, one or two a week at uni, and only a few when I'm drunk
• Only go out at night once a week during the uni year
• Gain a .75 grade point average (Last semester I got .77)
• Clean up the dining room
• Join big brother big sister program
• Get a job over summer
• Better sleeping habits
• Work on photo album
• Lose a bit of weight and get fitter
• Go outside more, gain my vitamin D!
• Just...be okay...consistently...long-term...

Anyway, I'll probs update this when I think of more. Off to bed now at 12:07 (as opposed to 2 like normally) to start gaining better sleeping habits!

Talk.

Inspired by Camelgirl's posts :)

To S:

To J:

To AHH:

To T:

Wow.

The lovely Camelgirl tagged me in this probably 3 or 4 months ago. However, my copy and paste wouldn't work on Blogger for a long time. Twas odd. Anyway, its working again so I was finally able to copy and paste this!!

Abracadabra, Wow!

I like boys who actually care about things and girls who don't.

I like chick flicks.

I like politics, when I understand (which isn't very often).

I like witty comments.

I like guy friends.
I like How I Met Your Mother.
I like old friends who I still enjoying talking to, even though we've faded away. Rather than old friends I only feel resentment towards.
I like wishes.
I like regrets, they keep the world in order and stop you from making the same mistakes over and over.
I like uni...sometimes.
I like sleeping.

I like my life without you in it.

I love concerts. Seeing Powderfinger and Jet on Friday!!!

Today has just begun (12:03 am).

In some ways, I love everything.

Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular.
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate

I hate having this cough.
I hate how people are against gay rights. I don't understand...I really want to say to them "what if you're own child was homosexual? Would you love them less?" and hopefully make them feel guilty.
I hate being scared of the future, and thoughts that I may not end up with a family of my own.
I hate knowing its over, and that I did everything to try and fix it, but it still ended.
I hate trying to get over three people at once.
I hate how I've become a doppleganger of myself.
I hate the things I do at this age, and I hate how fun they are, but in a way, they're the only things that make me feel alive.
I hate how easy it was to fill in the 'hate' section but so hard to fill in the 'like'.

I hate this, wow. . .

Sorry.

Oh you've been on my mind.

So at the moment, I more or less believe this song is about me. I would love to move on with my life and start again, but I've been trying to for the past 2 years. I'm having trouble with it. How am I supposed to move on without someone new in my life? How am I supposed to move on when nobody new is on my mind? But kudos to Bob Evans; its a lovely song.

Don't you think it's time

Time to start anew

Time for changing views

Time for making up your mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for moving on

Time for growing strong

Time to leave the past behind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for quelling fear

Time for a new year

Time for meaning what you say

Don't you think it's time

Time for easing doubt

Time for reaching out

Time to open up your eyes

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

Don't you think it's time

Time for trusting more

Without keeping score

Time to let forgiveness out

Don't you think it's time

Time for showing grace

Time for having faith

Time to make more of this time

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

You've been on my mind

Oh you've been on my mind

--Don't You Think It's Time, Bob Evans

P.S. This is my 100th post :)

My love.

Forever.

This is my first post in a while. Why? I'm not sure. I don't have much to say but I have so much, at the same time.

I used to not be afraid of dying.

I thought, "other people will have to deal with it, not me; because I'll be the one who's dead...". In a way;

I thought, "life kill me now, while I'm not afaid."

Now the thought of dying scares me.

I think, "saying goodbye to old friends and new loves?"

I think, "maybe I am happier? I don't think about dying as much...what if I am happier?"

That scares me.

But I didn't die when I wasn't afraid.

But I am alive now while I am afraid.

But will I die when I'm not afraid again?

Or will I die afraid?

I don't know...but I don't want to live forever.

That scares me the most...

Broke.

I'm not heart-broken.
Just broken.

Is it?

This is better than nothing.
But more is better than this.
I want more. But I could end up with nothing.
Is it worth the risk?

I don't think so, not this time.

Light.

I love reminders of a happier time,

even if they are just simple,

such as my lamp being bent a certain way,

because you said that the light hurt your eyes.

♥

Maybe.

These quotes are the only thing keeping me alive at this point.

I want...

Description:

"Cause we tend to make each other blush (you make me blush)"

-The Bird and the Worm; Owl City

"Tonight I'm weak, it's just another day without you, I can't sleep"
-I Wanna; All American Rejects

"Maybe that's why it breaks, and we do the things we do, maybe that's what it takes"
-Maybe That's What it Takes; Alex Parks

"Yes you can hold my hand if you want to, Cause I want to hold yours too, We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds."
-Big Girls Don't Cry; Fergie

"Oh, baby baby it's a wild world, and I'll always remember you like a child girl"
-Wild World; Cat Stevens

Eventually.

Opposite.

I wish I knew more words, then maybe I could explain how I feel.

So I apoligise deeply if this comes out childlike, but all I want to do is go back to when life was simpler. Because at the moment it's only...

Happy yet hurt.

Strong yet weak.

Same yet different.

So together yet completely falling apart.

No fucking way do I want to go through that again. So I will keep my distance. Which is a shame.